People say the human heart is a funny thing. It can keep you hanging on to something that honestly doesn’t do you any good. It feels so much; so much goes through it in a day, week, or even a year. But the funny thing is the mind. While your heart might have a hard time telling you not to let go, the mind can easily make the decision without even thinking twice. The odd thing about the mind is although it can make more rational decisions about what is best for you, once its gone, the mind decides to make it occupy every thought. It is like the mind and heart switch roles. Who would have guessed that the only part of you that wanted something gone so quick, refuses to let it disappear completely?
It can be so easy to blame someone for bad things that happen. However, it is just as easy to turn a bad situation around. Consider it a lesson learned. People always say “I wish I was happy” or “I’d be happy if”, when in all actuality, it is you that is keeping yourself from being happy. Sure, we all go through those days where nothing seems to go right and you can’t figure out what went wrong. But what I’ve leaned from this is the more you think about how things could have turned out, the more pain they cause. So just stop thinking.
If only it was that easy.
The mind does weird things. It can play tricks on you; it can convince you that something that didn’t actually happen did or that a conversation that went the wrong way turned right. Then, once you discover that it was all figures of your imagination, you spiral into this huge over-thought mess which can be the hardest thing to climb out of. You begin to question everything that you normally wouldn’t have even spent a second thinking about. Your favorite shirt suddenly becomes the one hidden in the back of your closet. You start to despise your daily routine when shortly before, it was the way of life. Then the deep stuff starts to bubble up. Are you really happy? What exactly do you want out of life? Or, my personal favorites, what do others really think about you? Did you disappoint them by them thinking that you are someone that you’re not? Do you ever cross their minds? So many questions, most of which really are quite pointless questions and it is rather silly to be spending so much time obsessing over them but they are weighing you down. You feel like you’re in constant slow motion. Falling down and down and down.
But stop and take a second and look at the simple things. A glass of iced tea, green grass, blue sky. A sundress, smiles, a good morning text. A smile from someone you know, your favorite song on the radio. Then look at the bigger picture. Family, friends, a supportive “fan base”. Take a deep breath. Good to know you’re still breathing. You’re still alive. Sure, things could be so much better, but things could also be so much worse. Chin up, you’ve got this.
This was quite a rant. But its funny because these concerns have been bubbling through my mind lately. But its also funny because I’ve been thinking how lucky I really am, but I just haven’t been able to put two and two together. But now that I have, I’m back to the way I was: happy and giggly. And that’s the way I should be. That’s the way you should be. So chin up, buttercup. And don’t forget, if you can’t seem to fake a smile, I know that there is a least one person out there who is willing to listen. Don’t forget about them, they certainly haven’t forgotten about you.